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VICTORIA STATION“We are all visitors to this time, this place. We are just passing through. Our purpose here is to observe, to learn, to grow, to love... and then we return home.” ~Australian Aboriginal Proverb
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Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis
6/22/2008 I'm Serving Time for 'Jerry's Kids" and the MDASomeone has asked that I be 'locked up' to help raise money for the MDA. Because what Martin has is ALS, which is a motor neuron disease it comes under the umbrella of the MDA.
Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (ALS) (Also known as Lou Gehrig's Disease)
Definition - A disease of the motor neurons, muscle-controlling nerve cells in the brain and spinal cord that control voluntary muscle movement. Cause - generally unknown, although genetic factors are thought to play a role; about 10 percent of cases are clearly genetic, with a family history Onset -usually adulthood What happens to someone with ALS? In ALS, nerve cells that control muscle cells are gradually lost. In most cases, the cause is unknown. As these motor neurons are lost, the muscles they control become weak and then nonfunctional. Eventually, the person with ALS is paralyzed. Death, usually from respiratory complications, typically comes between three and five years after diagnosis (some studies say after symptoms are noted, so the timing is unclear). About 10 percent of those with the disease live more than 10 years, and some survive for decades. Modern technology has allowed people with ALS to compensate for almost every loss of function to some degree, making it possible even for those with almost no muscle function to continue to breathe, communicate, move about and use a computer. Longevity statistics may be somewhat out of date because of changes in supportive care and technology. For example, British physicist Stephen Hawking has had ALS since the 1960s and is still able to write and practice his profession. It’s important to note that the involuntary muscles, such as those that control the heartbeat, gastrointestinal tract and bowel function, bladder and sexual functions are not directly affected in ALS. (However, prolonged inability to move and other effects of ALS can have some indirect impact.) Pain is not a direct consequence of the disorder, although moderate pain can certainly occur as a result of immobility and its various complications. Hearing, vision, touch and intellectual ability generally remain quite normal. Some people experience loss of control over emotional expressions such as laughing or crying, a phenomenon thought to be directly related to the disease process. Of course, in such a devastating disorder as ALS, it’s natural for people to feel angry, sad or depressed, whether or not they experience unwanted emotional episodes. I am not one to ask people for donations of money, no matter how worthy the cause. It is simply not in my nature to do so. In this case, however, because my husband has ALS and any money raised by donations to the MDA will directly affect his quality of life and the research needed to find a cure for ALS, I am asking you for your help. Most people donate $25, $50, or $100, however, you can give whatever you are able. It is unlikely that a cure will be found in Martin's lifetime but having seen what this disease can do I pray that a cure will be found to help all those who come after. Simply click on the link at the beginning of this post or click on the link shown on the right side of this page under 'MDA Lock Up' to make your donation on line. Thank you. 6/8/2008 Sunday's MantraFrom the bitterness of disease man learns the sweetness of health. ~Catalan Proverb
For days I have thought about posting. I have been filled with anger and frustration and sadness and I wanted a place to vent. I hesitated, though because I do not want to appear to be whining and complaining, scrounging for sympathy, feeling sorry for myself.
The ALS is progressing and when I think back to how things were a few months ago, even just one month ago, it tears at my heart how this disease can move so quickly. Only months ago our calls to 911 were because Martin had fallen while walking with a wheeled walker and me by his side, always holding onto him and doing my best to prevent those falls. Now our calls to 911 are because I cannot get him from his wheelchair, into the bed. He can no longer walk and it will not be much longer until he is unable to stand at all. As it is now, it requires great effort on his part and physical strength that I never knew I had to get him standing up. Those few moments of being on his feet are only accomplished after numerous failed attempts and very specific steps to get him that way. Each failure saps our strength and more often than not we finally give in to the inevitable and call 911. We have the most wonderful, caring and efficient EMT personnel and they help us while never once making us feel foolish or that we are asking them to do something that we could probably have done ourselves. I cannot say enough good things about them.
ALS is a cruel disease that takes away a person's ability to do the most simple things, things healthy people don't think twice about - combing your hair, brushing your teeth, blowing your nose, opening a cupboard door, signing your name, flipping a light switch, taking care of personal hygiene, turning over in bed, feeding yourself. These are all things that Martin can no longer do. Right now he has a health aide that comes two hours a day, Monday through Friday and helps him with many of these things. She is wonderful and we feel blessed to have her here. She even does light housekeeping and laundry which is a tremendous help to me, personally. Sadly, Medicare will only pay for this until the end of June and while the local ALSA will give us $750 per quarter for a home health aide it is not enough to pay for what he is getting now. We don't see a way to afford paying the difference ourselves so we are scrambling, trying to find a solution.
I am often angry about what this disease has done to our lives. What I have just described is only a part of the challenges we face everyday. While there are many, many instances of emotional breakdowns for both of us we find that we are still able to laugh together and quite often go from crying to laughing in a matter of seconds. I have lost count of the number of times I have said to myself "I can't do this. I just can't do it", but I do it anyway. Somehow, someway, I find the strength to do it when I feel like I am going to collapse.
So far today things have gone fairly well. I actually found myself feeling totally at peace just a little while ago. I think what started me down that path was my friend Tom, whom I love dearly. In an email I commented on a blog entry he had done that mentioned mantras and I asked him to send me one because I felt I needed it. He sent me the following: Om Tare tutare ture soha, which meant absolutely nothing to me. He told me to google it, so I did. I was surprised to find it on YouTube and then spent some time listening to this over and over...
It must have had some effect on me because I found myself feeling better. After watching the video I went to get Martin some lunch, which he attempted to feed to himself, but after only a few minutes his arms grew tired. So I sat and fed him Fritos while we talked and I looked at the latest issue of Artful Blogging. I found that I suddenly felt totally at peace. It was a rare moment. Oddly enough, so many of the things that Martin can no longer do and that I have to do for him have made me feel so protective of him. Watching him struggle so valiantly to do a simple thing like put a piece of food in his mouth makes my heart ache and for some reason I cannot explain, endears him to me even more than anything he has done for the last 30+ years. For so many years of our marriage it has been Martin who took care of me. Now it is my turn to take care of him. Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. ~Buddha
3/21/2008 The Rite of SpringWindflowers by John William Waterhouse Forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. ~Kahlil Gibran
The Pretty Baa-Lambs by Ford Madox Brown She walks--the lady of my delight-- The Bunch of Lilacs by James Jacques-Joseph Tissot The spring is fresh and fearless When Flowers Return by Sir Lawrence Alma-Tadema When Flowers return Spring by Jean Leon Gerome The naked earth is warm with Spring, Les Fleurs du Printemps by Arthur Hacker Sitting quietly, doing nothing, Flora: Spring in the Gardens of the Villa Borghese by Sir Lawrence Alma-Tadema Now Nature hangs her mantle green
The Return of Spring by William Bougeureau No matter how long the winter, spring is sure to follow. ~~~ Proverb from Guinea 3/9/2008 Auras and Positive Qualities
2/29/2008 BecauseFor what is it to die,
But to stand in the sun and melt into the wind? ~Kahlil Gibran, from "The Prophet" Until I read Julie Marie's blog entry this morning I had forgotten how crazy I was for the Dave Clark Five when I was a teenager. Even now, when Because comes on the Oldies station I can remember every word of it and sing along. I didn't realize that the DC5 were being inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame or that Mike Smith had been hospitalized for the last four years and had been through so much. I am sorry to hear of his passing but I want to thank Julie for reminding me of just how good their music is and for bringing back so many memories. Rest in Peace, Mike.You will live on through your music, leaving us with a timeless gift - the gift of music.
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